As I growing up...when many things happened in my life...I realise that easily I will be FEAR ,just in anytime...any situation...why??when i feel the fear...I become silent...I become don't wanna talk much...and become exhausted...I don't want to explain to anybody...I really don't why...
As I growing up...friends are getting lesser and lesser...not much to share with...only the best friend I will share to...how I feel...whats my opinion...other than that...I couldnt find any ways to solve this problem...blog pehaps....very complicated in my mind....连自己都搞不好自己在想什么。。。那还有什么资格去里别的事情？？
My emotion can be change anytime in any situation...I'm worried if I really got any mentality sickness....Is it because too much of focus in my work??too much focus in my dream??Even now Im on leave...There is a time for me to rest...but...I feel worst....maybe because of not much thing to do...and think too much...I really wanna rest....but I couldn't...not I don't want....
Even my parents ask me anything...I don't really feel like reply their questions.....they ask me alot...but I might only answer them not more than 3 times....my mum says :十问,九不答。。。I don't want to be like this...but I really feel pissed off.....actually there is nothing to be piss off...just that ...I don't know....Maybe I just need people understand me...many people says they understand me so well...but I don't feel that way... I don't think my parents understand me well...but I don't wanna talk...how they suppose to understandd me then??sorry to say that...then ...what is consider understand me??
People says...if you don't feel happy...do something!!!just anything ...at least the 'something' can disperse your emotional thoughts...to make you busy..let you not to think about the complicated topic as you thinking....to make you feel...not that worse..at least,a medicine to control your sickness..............
No matter what now...I think....thise year I'm sure it will be a big happening....I will make it happen as what my dream goes on....I'm just waiting for the chance....If not...I will need to wait for few years later again...Since I'm usually alone...there is nothing to be sad as Im alone...I will do things alone...I will live alone...I will travel alone...to see the world...Alone....are you willing to take this path just like what Im gonna do?Is it consider a big sacrifice to get what is in your dream??I only know that ...this is only the way...to find out myself and what actually I am....
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