I have been realized that Im growing fat abit by abit....because of too much food...esspecially steamboat....please if any of my friends read my blog remember not to invite me to have steamboat again...because I had enough of it ....it is scary to see that your size for the pants larger and larger....
Not dare to be said I'm a chef...but in the future will be ...as now I would like to advice myself and you all keep a healthy diet...a healthy physical fitness...esspecially you are working in the kitchen...evenmore you are a CHEF.....
I have seen that some of the high rank chef had a giant and fatty body size...not even the chef coat suits them...its gonna burst !What can you imagine that a person with a obese size become a chef??For what I think (sorry if I said what it shouldnt be please forgive me =X)a chef who have an obese size..not to say that they are unprofessional...is that their experience are all came from all the 'food tasting'...then when ages go on...their weight and size begin to expand..due to lack of training and execise in physical fitness and healthy diet...imagine everyday you have french fries and burger,...you will be the same too....
As now I'm facing the future problems too...I'm worried if one day I will be the same like those 'fat chef'...as a chef we not only need how to prepare a good food,but have a healthy diet and physical body will tell that if you are really a good chef...so what we do??CHEF...Lets start a daily fitness EXERCISE !!! =)
Friday, February 25, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
反正都没有哪几个人会在乎，那不如我走好了。。。。
在我回来关丹这段期间。。。我真的是闷到爆。。。闷到发疯，我终于beh tahan ！！！我的灵感来了就想写blog...我超不爽啊！！！回来关丹。。。我的朋友个个都M.I.A. 了。。有些电话打不通玩失踪。。。有些读书的读书，做工的做工。。。在此的，都有他们的忙。。。讲不好听。。。我回来等于没有回来。。。就当作时路过关丹吧。。。
由于无情的时间未能挽留我门之间的友情。。。一日之别，何时再能想见？？？有些人一瞬间，四年没见了。。。就这样我的四年。。。见少许许多多的朋友。。。你看多快？！再多一两下。。。可能收到朋友的风说：那个谁谁谁就快要结婚了。。。其实说真的，十年可以很快的过去。。。
走过有人的地方，看过不同的人。。。虽然不是去过很多很多的地方。。。但走过的路都看过有的人疯疯癫癫过了几十年，则有些人无所事事不懂自己要什么荒废了十几年，看到这些人，我自然会幻想我的未来会是如何的。。。再怎么不好。。。我也不想像这些人一样！！！很可怕你知道吗？？只要你在一盘棋下到哪一步棋。。。他都会有不同的结果。。。会送你不同的效果。。。真的，我很怕有一天我会跟这些人一样，疯疯癫癫无所事事荒废这些宝贵的时间。。。
一路来，我都会经常问自己。。。‘朋友们，你在哪里？？为什么我的朋友都不怎么联络我。。。’是不是他们都不在乎我。。。我想是因为他们有他们的东西忙吧。。。是因为太自由的我有太多做梦的空间，让我太过投入胡思乱想 。。。我都会这样劝导我自己，但我真的不知道会不会有那么一天我会失控跑去自杀？？有时的心情真的生不如死。。。那种感觉不是每个人都会明白。。。
事故走到今天这一步。。。我想其实是我的态度，我的性格。。。无法融入他人生活话题。。。就因为这样，更找到了让我想离开的原因（难道这里不属于我？？）反正在乎我的也没几个，就算在乎的也管不着那么多，那不如我走好了。。。但在我走之前，我想把关丹的点点滴滴都记录下来，关丹其实是个很轻松的地方，算是个充满大自然的小镇，只是在座各位关丹的市民都把关丹看成很普遍那样，我是个关丹人我觉得很荣幸，因为到头来那是我的归宿，我的家。。。我。。。会不舍得关丹吗？？？
渺小的我不被人看好，不被人多关心。。。让我走得越远越好，希望我遥远的目标能达成，去找一个能够融入我的存在-的地方。。。一个全新所有人不认识我的地方。。。一举成名！我相信天下无绝人之路，只要有人生存的地方。。。哪个地方就会收留我。。。我要带着我的技能-行走四海，环绕全球（说不定还没绕完就死了）毫无怨言，一点也不后悔。。。至少那时的我，活得精彩，找到人生中我想要的意义。。。说不定到时我会被封为历史伟大的人物，孩子们也可能会是我的粉丝。。。。。。
由于无情的时间未能挽留我门之间的友情。。。一日之别，何时再能想见？？？有些人一瞬间，四年没见了。。。就这样我的四年。。。见少许许多多的朋友。。。你看多快？！再多一两下。。。可能收到朋友的风说：那个谁谁谁就快要结婚了。。。其实说真的，十年可以很快的过去。。。
走过有人的地方，看过不同的人。。。虽然不是去过很多很多的地方。。。但走过的路都看过有的人疯疯癫癫过了几十年，则有些人无所事事不懂自己要什么荒废了十几年，看到这些人，我自然会幻想我的未来会是如何的。。。再怎么不好。。。我也不想像这些人一样！！！很可怕你知道吗？？只要你在一盘棋下到哪一步棋。。。他都会有不同的结果。。。会送你不同的效果。。。真的，我很怕有一天我会跟这些人一样，疯疯癫癫无所事事荒废这些宝贵的时间。。。
一路来，我都会经常问自己。。。‘朋友们，你在哪里？？为什么我的朋友都不怎么联络我。。。’是不是他们都不在乎我。。。我想是因为他们有他们的东西忙吧。。。是因为太自由的我有太多做梦的空间，让我太过投入胡思乱想 。。。我都会这样劝导我自己，但我真的不知道会不会有那么一天我会失控跑去自杀？？有时的心情真的生不如死。。。那种感觉不是每个人都会明白。。。
事故走到今天这一步。。。我想其实是我的态度，我的性格。。。无法融入他人生活话题。。。就因为这样，更找到了让我想离开的原因（难道这里不属于我？？）反正在乎我的也没几个，就算在乎的也管不着那么多，那不如我走好了。。。但在我走之前，我想把关丹的点点滴滴都记录下来，关丹其实是个很轻松的地方，算是个充满大自然的小镇，只是在座各位关丹的市民都把关丹看成很普遍那样，我是个关丹人我觉得很荣幸，因为到头来那是我的归宿，我的家。。。我。。。会不舍得关丹吗？？？
渺小的我不被人看好，不被人多关心。。。让我走得越远越好，希望我遥远的目标能达成，去找一个能够融入我的存在-的地方。。。一个全新所有人不认识我的地方。。。一举成名！我相信天下无绝人之路，只要有人生存的地方。。。哪个地方就会收留我。。。我要带着我的技能-行走四海，环绕全球（说不定还没绕完就死了）毫无怨言，一点也不后悔。。。至少那时的我，活得精彩，找到人生中我想要的意义。。。说不定到时我会被封为历史伟大的人物，孩子们也可能会是我的粉丝。。。。。。
Friday, February 18, 2011
The path I'm choosing...is not what people who willing to take it...
As I growing up...when many things happened in my life...I realise that easily I will be FEAR ,just in anytime...any situation...why??when i feel the fear...I become silent...I become don't wanna talk much...and become exhausted...I don't want to explain to anybody...I really don't why...
As I growing up...friends are getting lesser and lesser...not much to share with...only the best friend I will share to...how I feel...whats my opinion...other than that...I couldnt find any ways to solve this problem...blog pehaps....very complicated in my mind....连自己都搞不好自己在想什么。。。那还有什么资格去里别的事情？？
My emotion can be change anytime in any situation...I'm worried if I really got any mentality sickness....Is it because too much of focus in my work??too much focus in my dream??Even now Im on leave...There is a time for me to rest...but...I feel worst....maybe because of not much thing to do...and think too much...I really wanna rest....but I couldn't...not I don't want....
Even my parents ask me anything...I don't really feel like reply their questions.....they ask me alot...but I might only answer them not more than 3 times....my mum says :十问,九不答。。。I don't want to be like this...but I really feel pissed off.....actually there is nothing to be piss off...just that ...I don't know....Maybe I just need people understand me...many people says they understand me so well...but I don't feel that way... I don't think my parents understand me well...but I don't wanna talk...how they suppose to understandd me then??sorry to say that...then ...what is consider understand me??
People says...if you don't feel happy...do something!!!just anything ...at least the 'something' can disperse your emotional thoughts...to make you busy..let you not to think about the complicated topic as you thinking....to make you feel...not that worse..at least,a medicine to control your sickness..............
No matter what now...I think....thise year I'm sure it will be a big happening....I will make it happen as what my dream goes on....I'm just waiting for the chance....If not...I will need to wait for few years later again...Since I'm usually alone...there is nothing to be sad as Im alone...I will do things alone...I will live alone...I will travel alone...to see the world...Alone....are you willing to take this path just like what Im gonna do?Is it consider a big sacrifice to get what is in your dream??I only know that ...this is only the way...to find out myself and what actually I am....
DON'T UNDERSTAND MY BLOG???WEIRD PEOPLE HUH...............................
As I growing up...friends are getting lesser and lesser...not much to share with...only the best friend I will share to...how I feel...whats my opinion...other than that...I couldnt find any ways to solve this problem...blog pehaps....very complicated in my mind....连自己都搞不好自己在想什么。。。那还有什么资格去里别的事情？？
My emotion can be change anytime in any situation...I'm worried if I really got any mentality sickness....Is it because too much of focus in my work??too much focus in my dream??Even now Im on leave...There is a time for me to rest...but...I feel worst....maybe because of not much thing to do...and think too much...I really wanna rest....but I couldn't...not I don't want....
Even my parents ask me anything...I don't really feel like reply their questions.....they ask me alot...but I might only answer them not more than 3 times....my mum says :十问,九不答。。。I don't want to be like this...but I really feel pissed off.....actually there is nothing to be piss off...just that ...I don't know....Maybe I just need people understand me...many people says they understand me so well...but I don't feel that way... I don't think my parents understand me well...but I don't wanna talk...how they suppose to understandd me then??sorry to say that...then ...what is consider understand me??
People says...if you don't feel happy...do something!!!just anything ...at least the 'something' can disperse your emotional thoughts...to make you busy..let you not to think about the complicated topic as you thinking....to make you feel...not that worse..at least,a medicine to control your sickness..............
No matter what now...I think....thise year I'm sure it will be a big happening....I will make it happen as what my dream goes on....I'm just waiting for the chance....If not...I will need to wait for few years later again...Since I'm usually alone...there is nothing to be sad as Im alone...I will do things alone...I will live alone...I will travel alone...to see the world...Alone....are you willing to take this path just like what Im gonna do?Is it consider a big sacrifice to get what is in your dream??I only know that ...this is only the way...to find out myself and what actually I am....
DON'T UNDERSTAND MY BLOG???WEIRD PEOPLE HUH...............................
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
因为你的出现。。。所有事情都开始自然的变了。。。。
你知道吗？？在工作度过了‘单身节’未必不是好事，从我的老大身上又学到了点东西。让我大开眼界，
在今天这一切都结束了。。。我撑到最后，竟然就快倒下的瞬间，老大伸手相救，扶我起来，给了我勇气。。。‘请不要在最重要的时刻倒下，这里少了谁也不行。。。’谢谢你~最繁忙的时刻已度过了，该轮到我休息了。。。我累了，让我休息是为了走更长远的路。。。我希望在我休息期间我的同事们一样可以没有我依然能安然无忧的完成他们的工作，一样能顺顺利利的解决问题，希望别的部门不会向我们开炮，惹是生非。。。不然。。。我会内疚，也许不应该拿一个礼拜的假期。。。但说真的，我很想念我的家，我的朋友们。。。我实在没有办法。。。那是否你也会明白我的心情？？
在回家休息这段期间，身体是在放松。。但头脑还得操作。。。要一直想，不断的想，我从小都在想要如何才能踏出马来西亚这一步，人家都说：‘你在新加坡不就踏出了马来西亚吗？？’没错，我是踏出了马来西亚，但是我所拥有的野心太大了，新加坡无法满足我所要的。。。我妈以前都常说：‘你的心那么野，整天想着往外跑。’那时的我还叛逆的他们讲什么我顶他们什么。。。我那时都否认我是这种人，说我是乖孩子，直到岁月慢慢的累计，我才明白我爸妈讲的话意味着什么。。。野心不能没有，没有野心的人往往追求不到梦想，但有野心，不可以有恶念。。。野心+恶念，那你就是坏蛋。。。那我是不是坏蛋？就看你怎样去评估了。。。
你知道吗?因为你的出现，让我鼓起了我的胆量，让我的心更野更想向你一样往外飞。。。就这样我开始大胆的去想。。。大胆的去尝试。。。因为我不跑开。。。我想我一定会后悔。。。但我是想飞，不能马上就飞去最想去的地方。。。因为最想去的地方总要再后来才去，就是先苦后甜。。。遇到的人也一样，总是太早相遇，也太早的分开。。。根本就是在错的时间遇见对的人，但愿不会在对的时间遇见错的人吧。。。
你知道吗？人总说‘不要因为一棵树而放弃整个森林’。。。但是我呢？？我要因为一棵树，要选择爬这棵最高的树。。。好让我爬到最高，看到整个森林的美妙。。。所以我要不断尝试。。。无论如何，今年之内我一定要出国闯。。。除非什么事情能拦住我。。。不然一定要让我看到世界各地的美妙。。原因就是要因为你的存在，而让我奔跑四海。。。寻找出真正的我 =）
不管你知不知道。。。在不在意，没关系。。。不是因为你我变得多好，而是因为你我没有变得不好。。只要我没有变得不好，那就足够了 ~~~ =）
在今天这一切都结束了。。。我撑到最后，竟然就快倒下的瞬间，老大伸手相救，扶我起来，给了我勇气。。。‘请不要在最重要的时刻倒下，这里少了谁也不行。。。’谢谢你~最繁忙的时刻已度过了，该轮到我休息了。。。我累了，让我休息是为了走更长远的路。。。我希望在我休息期间我的同事们一样可以没有我依然能安然无忧的完成他们的工作，一样能顺顺利利的解决问题，希望别的部门不会向我们开炮，惹是生非。。。不然。。。我会内疚，也许不应该拿一个礼拜的假期。。。但说真的，我很想念我的家，我的朋友们。。。我实在没有办法。。。那是否你也会明白我的心情？？
在回家休息这段期间，身体是在放松。。但头脑还得操作。。。要一直想，不断的想，我从小都在想要如何才能踏出马来西亚这一步，人家都说：‘你在新加坡不就踏出了马来西亚吗？？’没错，我是踏出了马来西亚，但是我所拥有的野心太大了，新加坡无法满足我所要的。。。我妈以前都常说：‘你的心那么野，整天想着往外跑。’那时的我还叛逆的他们讲什么我顶他们什么。。。我那时都否认我是这种人，说我是乖孩子，直到岁月慢慢的累计，我才明白我爸妈讲的话意味着什么。。。野心不能没有，没有野心的人往往追求不到梦想，但有野心，不可以有恶念。。。野心+恶念，那你就是坏蛋。。。那我是不是坏蛋？就看你怎样去评估了。。。
你知道吗?因为你的出现，让我鼓起了我的胆量，让我的心更野更想向你一样往外飞。。。就这样我开始大胆的去想。。。大胆的去尝试。。。因为我不跑开。。。我想我一定会后悔。。。但我是想飞，不能马上就飞去最想去的地方。。。因为最想去的地方总要再后来才去，就是先苦后甜。。。遇到的人也一样，总是太早相遇，也太早的分开。。。根本就是在错的时间遇见对的人，但愿不会在对的时间遇见错的人吧。。。
你知道吗？人总说‘不要因为一棵树而放弃整个森林’。。。但是我呢？？我要因为一棵树，要选择爬这棵最高的树。。。好让我爬到最高，看到整个森林的美妙。。。所以我要不断尝试。。。无论如何，今年之内我一定要出国闯。。。除非什么事情能拦住我。。。不然一定要让我看到世界各地的美妙。。原因就是要因为你的存在，而让我奔跑四海。。。寻找出真正的我 =）
不管你知不知道。。。在不在意，没关系。。。不是因为你我变得多好，而是因为你我没有变得不好。。只要我没有变得不好，那就足够了 ~~~ =）
Unexpected support from my brother .........
I didn't know why he helped me...maybe because of my naive thoughts??
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Just left a step.Just only 1 step,but.......
Finally already been proven...things never happen as I thought.Because I give up...what I lose to is myself....
Just only 1 step distance...I can complete my work....why??Why I stop...I have been waited ...not very long...at least there is an idea...is such a waste ...
Yes..I agree that I expect too much from myself...too much of expected that tortured my health which I didn't care it at the 1st place....A person who doens't take care of himself...how to take care the others??How to become a good leader??How to work out a good showpiece???
I was thought that staying overnight ,be hardwork..and I would find my way out of it...but what I have forgotten....work smart....work hard but work smart...1 day you will kill yourself....just like what happened today...why I will say just only 1 step distance...my showpiece will complete...because of my body can't take it anymore...physically,mentallity exhausted...cause from didn't rest well...the final key...I DIDN'T REST WELL...plus that today is the day to clear the whole kitchen for inspection...that is really kill my waist...thats why I failed to complete it...(and tomorrow will be in the rubbish bin for sure....)or maybe become a chcolate shave or something other use??anything it can be....
Why it come on such an important day to do inspection of kitchen....just a little more time....I really can't predict what will happen if I continue my mission with my tiring mind and body...
How would you feel if you are in such a deadline situation???Will you ignore your health status rather than complete of something that will let you feel satisfy?Let says if you complete the job...but then in the end you will knock out because of your body can't take it...
Not to say I give up...jsut to listen to my body once...to rest...because I wouldn't know if I get fainted...when will I wake up again...maybe not waking up anymore....at least I stop...in the future I will have other chance also.....but...it could be not as good oppoturnity as the condition now .....
Jsut only 1 step in front...will you take the step???
Just only 1 step distance...I can complete my work....why??Why I stop...I have been waited ...not very long...at least there is an idea...is such a waste ...
Yes..I agree that I expect too much from myself...too much of expected that tortured my health which I didn't care it at the 1st place....A person who doens't take care of himself...how to take care the others??How to become a good leader??How to work out a good showpiece???
I was thought that staying overnight ,be hardwork..and I would find my way out of it...but what I have forgotten....work smart....work hard but work smart...1 day you will kill yourself....just like what happened today...why I will say just only 1 step distance...my showpiece will complete...because of my body can't take it anymore...physically,mentallity exhausted...cause from didn't rest well...the final key...I DIDN'T REST WELL...plus that today is the day to clear the whole kitchen for inspection...that is really kill my waist...thats why I failed to complete it...(and tomorrow will be in the rubbish bin for sure....)or maybe become a chcolate shave or something other use??anything it can be....
Why it come on such an important day to do inspection of kitchen....just a little more time....I really can't predict what will happen if I continue my mission with my tiring mind and body...
How would you feel if you are in such a deadline situation???Will you ignore your health status rather than complete of something that will let you feel satisfy?Let says if you complete the job...but then in the end you will knock out because of your body can't take it...
Not to say I give up...jsut to listen to my body once...to rest...because I wouldn't know if I get fainted...when will I wake up again...maybe not waking up anymore....at least I stop...in the future I will have other chance also.....but...it could be not as good oppoturnity as the condition now .....
Jsut only 1 step in front...will you take the step???
Saturday, February 12, 2011
A lesson I found in a book... 'Platonism'
I would like to share an article with you all...of how people judge on something...
[Socrates:]"Since the beautiful is opposite of the ugly, they are two."
[Glaucon:]"Of course."
"And since they are two, each is one?"
"I grant that also."
"And the same account is true of the just and unjust, the good and the bad, and all the forms. Each of them is itself one, but because they manifest themselves everywhere in association with actions, bodies, and one another, each of them appears to be many."
"That's right."
"So, I draw this distinction: On one side are those you just now called lovers of sights, lovers of crafts, and practical people; on the other side are those we are now arguing about and whom one would alone call philosophers."
"How do you mean?"
"The lovers of sights and sounds like beautiful sounds, colors, shapes, and everything fashioned out of them, but their thought is unable to see and embrace the nature of the beautiful itself."
"That's for sure."
"In fact, there are very few people who would be able to reach the beautiful itself and see it by itself. Isn't that so?"
"Certainly."
"What about someone who believes in beautiful things, but doesn't believe in the beautiful itself and isn't able to follow anyone who could lead him to the knowledge of it? Don't you think he is living in a dream rather than a wakened state? Isn't this dreaming: whether asleep or awake, to think that a likeness is not a likeness but rather the thing itself that it is like?"
"I certainly think that someone who does that is dreaming."
"But someone who, to take the opposite case, believes in the beautiful itself, can see both it and the things that participate in it and doesn't believe that the participants are it or that it itself is the participants--is he living in a dream or is he awake?
"He's very much awake."
(Republic Bk. V, 475e-476d, translation G.M.A Grube)
heres the end of it...and so...if you found an apple which is red in colour when it is under the sunlight...how about when the apple is in the dark place??everything does have a beauty side...at the same time it does have the ugly side as well...if you are able to know the beauty and the ugly at the same time...then you are the wise person....
Thursday, February 10, 2011
It's not too late to love books =D
As I still remember ,I used to love books when im in kindergarden school,I was 5 years old that time...I remembered I was asking my mum so much on the books...and my mum teach me with every single details too...till now I still remember..thank god for giving me a good memorizing in memories...unlike my 2nd elder sister ,cant even remember whats going on on secondary school...haha(sorry for poke your back but still you are my lovely sister =)...)
When age goes on,to the primary school...the second year of primary..I started not interest in school books,because of what??The reason is I wonder why the others just simply listen to teachers when studying ,they can get a high makrs on exam,but me...huh,I study as hard as I can(that time I'm still love my books...)but then when it comes to an exam,I get low marks...the higher I studied...the lower and lower marks I get in my exam each time...This situation has made me lost the interest to study,especially when I came to secondary school...everything is changing...I felt that the books from the schools are getting sucks ... I don't know really WTF the author write the books...(at least made the book more interesting??just some simple text...with not attracting colours of book...)
Few years before,when I was changing my school from SMK Alor Akar(a school for those who good in studies) to SMK Air Putih(a school for those playful ,gangsterism student)...why?? why did I decided to change my school?from being a good student to a wild student...its because I found no friends in the previous school...I hate the feeling...I hate the feeling being alone....the student in SMK Alor Akar are so arrogant...I don't like them ...their way looked at me...their way of judge me...is really hurting me alot,but I didn't take it seriously..I didn't share it to anybody...even the teachers seems don't like me...I keep it everything to myself...SMK Alor Akar,you giving me a sad experience ...but you have let me learnt what is independent...thats why I transfer to another school....a school which rather more friends,that I felt comfortable...although I didnt get a good result studying there...at least better than those treat me LCLY people ...
After I graduated...I didnt even touches any books...because of my hard time experience in secondary school...many people advised me to study more...I didn't listen....even the teachers advice me...even the school send me a letter ask me go back to get an A level study...I didn't...My parents suggest me to study ...I didn't...My parents was like quite upset...just let my life be ~~~because they know that Im not under their control anymore...and sorry for hurting both of you so much because I never listen to you,I object everything you wanna give to me...because of the affect from my enviroment...dad mum...I'm so sorry I didn't graduated highly as you aspected....I know that both of you love me so much ...I keep it to myself as well...I hardly express the feeling to both of you...truely...I love both of you my dad and mum....
3 years...its been 3 years...I was working as a waiter in a place called 'Singapore Polo Club' for two years...finally I met a pastry chef name Cheryl...she is the one who bring me into a new working enviroment...the pastry kitchen...when I got a chance to work in a pastry kitchen...finally...my dream job get into hands...but still alot of things to learn,still alot to study,alot of research need to do the question of how and why about the chemistry of baking n pastries...to reach my goal to become a top chef...I told myself I need to study...not meaning that going to school,but get more books,self study...no matter how hard it is....
It was started from the day of x'mas I receive the exchanges gift from my beloved Chef Carl...unfortunately Chef Carl left us without a notice at first after x'mas...we were very upset such a good chef was left,I still got alot of things need to learn from him...by the way, the dessert sensational cook book given from Chef Carl..its a good book,hmm...I'm not a book fanatic,but since that destiny have came to me ...and giving me another chance to keep going with books again...I told myself I have to,I need to become a top chef,and definitely I will meet Chef Carl again,shall be 1 day....I need to thank him sincerely for giving me a chance to join his pastry team...to let me grow further...Just that simple...I wanna become a top chef,I need to meet him again 1 day...and so...I need to read more books...just the time when he pass me the book...whispering in the bottom of heart(You need to love your book once again....gain your passion ,please don't give up the books...)the book from Chef Carl...will pass through generations...I guarantee...
And so...today was my offday,since got nothing to do...I went to a bookstore,just simply browse...and I spend about 1 hour + in the bookstore,just to look for the right book.wow...it was just too much choice for me to choose...luckily ,I choose the right book...its the book I want to own...I was superly excited when I get home ,take a browse on the book...oh yet its just what I'm looking for...
As I seen most of the cook book are too much focus mentioning on quantity of recipies,measurement of recipies and etc...they are just ordinary for me..for my opinion,what I think is a good cook book,is not due to how complete is the recipies,is not due to how simple the recipies...is that the full details of the food stated in the book...like where is it come from,origin from where??how does it started to serve??how that the ancient people created this dishes??how does it change due to generation pass on??I think if ever you got this kind of cook book which mention more about the sources of the food rather than just giving you the recipies...you master the sources where is it turn out that way...probably thats the best recipie book that you have read...because food is not about how classic is it...yes I know classic dish are important...we need to keep the record of the tradition food...and then we need to create a modern dishes as well...
If ever I got a chance to create a cook book...the book will be base on more to the origin of food that comes from...rather than giving the absolutely delicious recipies...people followed the recipies but don't know what is it about...:'why did your mum give you a name when you are born??'I don't know!!''just similar to that,,,then what for the recipies??Its just like eating the food without knowledge...like following the generation without a soul...just like a machine !!! I need to let people to understand...what is about cakes and bread...I need to let the people know what they are actually eating...I need to let them wake up and realize...'oh...its so amazing how it turns out!!!'therefore...the food you taste will be more delicious...because you knew the food...you become the good friend of the food...
Thats how a book can affect a person's life...to manke it meaningful...to get new dreams n mission in life...I will never ever say "NO" to books anymore...because of my dream,my passion,my mission,my target,my destiny...once again in my life...I love books again~~~~~~~
When age goes on,to the primary school...the second year of primary..I started not interest in school books,because of what??The reason is I wonder why the others just simply listen to teachers when studying ,they can get a high makrs on exam,but me...huh,I study as hard as I can(that time I'm still love my books...)but then when it comes to an exam,I get low marks...the higher I studied...the lower and lower marks I get in my exam each time...This situation has made me lost the interest to study,especially when I came to secondary school...everything is changing...I felt that the books from the schools are getting sucks ... I don't know really WTF the author write the books...(at least made the book more interesting??just some simple text...with not attracting colours of book...)
Few years before,when I was changing my school from SMK Alor Akar(a school for those who good in studies) to SMK Air Putih(a school for those playful ,gangsterism student)...why?? why did I decided to change my school?from being a good student to a wild student...its because I found no friends in the previous school...I hate the feeling...I hate the feeling being alone....the student in SMK Alor Akar are so arrogant...I don't like them ...their way looked at me...their way of judge me...is really hurting me alot,but I didn't take it seriously..I didn't share it to anybody...even the teachers seems don't like me...I keep it everything to myself...SMK Alor Akar,you giving me a sad experience ...but you have let me learnt what is independent...thats why I transfer to another school....a school which rather more friends,that I felt comfortable...although I didnt get a good result studying there...at least better than those treat me LCLY people ...
After I graduated...I didnt even touches any books...because of my hard time experience in secondary school...many people advised me to study more...I didn't listen....even the teachers advice me...even the school send me a letter ask me go back to get an A level study...I didn't...My parents suggest me to study ...I didn't...My parents was like quite upset...just let my life be ~~~because they know that Im not under their control anymore...and sorry for hurting both of you so much because I never listen to you,I object everything you wanna give to me...because of the affect from my enviroment...dad mum...I'm so sorry I didn't graduated highly as you aspected....I know that both of you love me so much ...I keep it to myself as well...I hardly express the feeling to both of you...truely...I love both of you my dad and mum....
3 years...its been 3 years...I was working as a waiter in a place called 'Singapore Polo Club' for two years...finally I met a pastry chef name Cheryl...she is the one who bring me into a new working enviroment...the pastry kitchen...when I got a chance to work in a pastry kitchen...finally...my dream job get into hands...but still alot of things to learn,still alot to study,alot of research need to do the question of how and why about the chemistry of baking n pastries...to reach my goal to become a top chef...I told myself I need to study...not meaning that going to school,but get more books,self study...no matter how hard it is....
It was started from the day of x'mas I receive the exchanges gift from my beloved Chef Carl...unfortunately Chef Carl left us without a notice at first after x'mas...we were very upset such a good chef was left,I still got alot of things need to learn from him...by the way, the dessert sensational cook book given from Chef Carl..its a good book,hmm...I'm not a book fanatic,but since that destiny have came to me ...and giving me another chance to keep going with books again...I told myself I have to,I need to become a top chef,and definitely I will meet Chef Carl again,shall be 1 day....I need to thank him sincerely for giving me a chance to join his pastry team...to let me grow further...Just that simple...I wanna become a top chef,I need to meet him again 1 day...and so...I need to read more books...just the time when he pass me the book...whispering in the bottom of heart(You need to love your book once again....gain your passion ,please don't give up the books...)the book from Chef Carl...will pass through generations...I guarantee...
And so...today was my offday,since got nothing to do...I went to a bookstore,just simply browse...and I spend about 1 hour + in the bookstore,just to look for the right book.wow...it was just too much choice for me to choose...luckily ,I choose the right book...its the book I want to own...I was superly excited when I get home ,take a browse on the book...oh yet its just what I'm looking for...
As I seen most of the cook book are too much focus mentioning on quantity of recipies,measurement of recipies and etc...they are just ordinary for me..for my opinion,what I think is a good cook book,is not due to how complete is the recipies,is not due to how simple the recipies...is that the full details of the food stated in the book...like where is it come from,origin from where??how does it started to serve??how that the ancient people created this dishes??how does it change due to generation pass on??I think if ever you got this kind of cook book which mention more about the sources of the food rather than just giving you the recipies...you master the sources where is it turn out that way...probably thats the best recipie book that you have read...because food is not about how classic is it...yes I know classic dish are important...we need to keep the record of the tradition food...and then we need to create a modern dishes as well...
If ever I got a chance to create a cook book...the book will be base on more to the origin of food that comes from...rather than giving the absolutely delicious recipies...people followed the recipies but don't know what is it about...:'why did your mum give you a name when you are born??'I don't know!!''just similar to that,,,then what for the recipies??Its just like eating the food without knowledge...like following the generation without a soul...just like a machine !!! I need to let people to understand...what is about cakes and bread...I need to let the people know what they are actually eating...I need to let them wake up and realize...'oh...its so amazing how it turns out!!!'therefore...the food you taste will be more delicious...because you knew the food...you become the good friend of the food...
Thats how a book can affect a person's life...to manke it meaningful...to get new dreams n mission in life...I will never ever say "NO" to books anymore...because of my dream,my passion,my mission,my target,my destiny...once again in my life...I love books again~~~~~~~
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Bad day...today...
Everything seems not going well with me today...as almost a year I have been working in pastry kitchen,this is the 1st time I made the worst mousse...a mousse with superly rough texture...even I seen myself:it shouldn't be this way....not only the mousse,the coffee cream melted as I put outside for too long...what had happen to me...this is not the best I can do....alot better....just a basic mousse...and I cant done it properly...I failed.....just wanted to say to myself..."shame on you as a pastry cook"
I really hope this day won't come back to me anymore...that makes me feel not stable to work with...
I really hope this day won't come back to me anymore...that makes me feel not stable to work with...
Monday, February 07, 2011
Am I giving too much of stress to myself???
It was aswesome ,a wonderful experience that I wanted to have it all along ago since I join and work as a part of pastry team.I have waited for the chance to come,I wish that I can create my own showpiece with what I've learn in pastry kitchen,what I've been tought by my chefs and seniors.
The reason why I wish so much to have my own showpiece,its not because of wanted to showing of to somebody what talent I have...many people would think of that way,but what I really think is 'I want to create something which that belongs to myself',something that represent me,something that I can't express it in words,something that is not only come from the idea...but come from the real personality of what I am.
Since christmas from last year,I was helping out my chef 'CDP' to create his winter showpiece ''the new generation'...Oh whats that??!!Its actually a gingerbread house with the title on it,mentioning the elder Santa was too old to work out and send the gifts to children,so that the son of elder Santa continued his fathers job...instead of riding reindeer,the son was help out with his 'CHIWAWA dog'.
When the season ended ,I was impressed with what actually showpiece can be done,and I have strongly promised myself to have a chocolate showpiece on the Valentines day...Days are getting nearer...only few more hours later to decide whether I'm going to create the showpiece drawn in my mind...only a week left to reach the Valentines day....I still hesitating...the more I think...I'm started to have a fear on the day comes...until now,I'm still think am I gonna do it or not??...I have lost my confidence when I come getting more knowledge...It was not me from the last few years...Brave, Direct , Confident... Kenny as I...have lost his strong ability to encounter the problems that would come...he is lost...
I was asking myself this evening in my working place... am I havng too much of expectation to myself??Am I giving too much of hope of I will be done ...when it comes to the topic showpiece on Valentines day,I am stress seriously...... I totally frustated on I have promised to myself, and now Im about to give up on what Im thinking..... feel so bad , so sad.... that Im blogging now but not concentrating my work...
It seems like nobody understands,even myself couldn't understand myself anymore..What I had became....
The reason why I wish so much to have my own showpiece,its not because of wanted to showing of to somebody what talent I have...many people would think of that way,but what I really think is 'I want to create something which that belongs to myself',something that represent me,something that I can't express it in words,something that is not only come from the idea...but come from the real personality of what I am.
Since christmas from last year,I was helping out my chef 'CDP' to create his winter showpiece ''the new generation'...Oh whats that??!!Its actually a gingerbread house with the title on it,mentioning the elder Santa was too old to work out and send the gifts to children,so that the son of elder Santa continued his fathers job...instead of riding reindeer,the son was help out with his 'CHIWAWA dog'.
When the season ended ,I was impressed with what actually showpiece can be done,and I have strongly promised myself to have a chocolate showpiece on the Valentines day...Days are getting nearer...only few more hours later to decide whether I'm going to create the showpiece drawn in my mind...only a week left to reach the Valentines day....I still hesitating...the more I think...I'm started to have a fear on the day comes...until now,I'm still think am I gonna do it or not??...I have lost my confidence when I come getting more knowledge...It was not me from the last few years...Brave, Direct , Confident... Kenny as I...have lost his strong ability to encounter the problems that would come...he is lost...
I was asking myself this evening in my working place... am I havng too much of expectation to myself??Am I giving too much of hope of I will be done ...when it comes to the topic showpiece on Valentines day,I am stress seriously...... I totally frustated on I have promised to myself, and now Im about to give up on what Im thinking..... feel so bad , so sad.... that Im blogging now but not concentrating my work...
It seems like nobody understands,even myself couldn't understand myself anymore..What I had became....
Saturday, February 05, 2011
First time came out with a blog, which I will never do so in the past...
To whom it may concern : Hi to anybody who visit my blog and your are welcome !
This is my first time having my own blog...the reason why because I realized that actually there are too many things happen in my life ,I found it hardly to explain and share with my friends, colleague and even parents...Sometimes I rather keep things to myself, not because of I don't like to share, its because of I don't know how to tell my feelings and stuff to anybody,especially the NEGATIVE......
That's why I created a blog, not only for myself...for you all,for anybody who passby , anybody would care, anybody would like to share with me with their opinion...for you to UNDERSTAND what actually I am.
Some people says that I'm good, some people says that I'm bad.What I know is in our life we will have people who support us, at the same time there will be people who will screwed up your life, to reach your own goal...
When people talk about me, I didn't expect them to have a good image on me (as I used to it...) Example like when somebody is giving me advice,you will see that I'm more like not interesting or ignoring it... They will tell me that Im so stubborn...not because of I really didn't care about it , never think about it ...I do think and analyze the questions,answers that people given to me and I will judge it whether if it is workable .Whether if im using the advice or not, you will see when the result comes out.People judge on me too early... but yes,I stubborn...
Some people answer the question and some people question the answer... REMEMBER... don't judge me too early..... I may not like what you think I am ..... just like the onion, peel it of layer by layer...you will see the different of me...
no money go for a psychiatrist???Then just let the blog to cure your psycho sickness ~~~
This is my first time having my own blog...the reason why because I realized that actually there are too many things happen in my life ,I found it hardly to explain and share with my friends, colleague and even parents...Sometimes I rather keep things to myself, not because of I don't like to share, its because of I don't know how to tell my feelings and stuff to anybody,especially the NEGATIVE......
That's why I created a blog, not only for myself...for you all,for anybody who passby , anybody would care, anybody would like to share with me with their opinion...for you to UNDERSTAND what actually I am.
Some people says that I'm good, some people says that I'm bad.What I know is in our life we will have people who support us, at the same time there will be people who will screwed up your life, to reach your own goal...
When people talk about me, I didn't expect them to have a good image on me (as I used to it...) Example like when somebody is giving me advice,you will see that I'm more like not interesting or ignoring it... They will tell me that Im so stubborn...not because of I really didn't care about it , never think about it ...I do think and analyze the questions,answers that people given to me and I will judge it whether if it is workable .Whether if im using the advice or not, you will see when the result comes out.People judge on me too early... but yes,I stubborn...
Some people answer the question and some people question the answer... REMEMBER... don't judge me too early..... I may not like what you think I am ..... just like the onion, peel it of layer by layer...you will see the different of me...
no money go for a psychiatrist???Then just let the blog to cure your psycho sickness ~~~
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